Girl, Boy... Boi?

hey all.
lately i've been trying not to label myself, as it really tends to complicate things. however, i did do some research to see if there was a label that would fit in a more apt way. what i stumbled across is the term "boi".
Boi (noun)- a young transgendered/androgynous/masculine person who is biologically female and presents themselves in a young, boyish way.
"masculine person who is biologically female and presents themselves in a young, boyish way."
exactly.
it was interesting at first when i read this. i thought about it for a while, seeing how it fit, how it felt. it fits like a custom made glove, and i'm very happy with it.
ironically, when i first told my mother i'm gay, her first reaction was,
"you're sure this isn't about gender expression?"
i'm still sure, and will always be sure, however, she makes a good point.
recently i attended a conference specific to LGBTQAI youth and their allies, and participated in a class where we discussed labels, words, and the power we allow words to have in our daily lives. the facilitator made many good points. specifically how a single word could tear down a person's whole view of themselves, and could be extremely empowering to another. a very good example of this is the word "butch". for a while, "butch" was derogatory, and yet is now one of the many ways i describe myself. afterward, i inquired if it is possible to be Genderqueer or Genderneutral and still identify as a lesbian.
his response was of course, not to mention that if they are female-bodied they still count under the generic definition. however, even if they aren't, if they feel that group is where they need to be to get the support they need, why not?
i can be solidly lesbian, and still genderneutral.
this was great news, as i had been questioning myself, since i had never heard of such a thing before. someone without a gender? what a fascinating idea!
(oh, if you're wondering: Genderqueer - Genderqueer refers to people who do not adhere to strictly male or female identities and roles. A genderqueer person often chooses to present as neither clearly male, nor clearly female, but rather as a gender-free individual. just thought i'd clarify.)
i have a feeling that if i have the opportunity to do so, i will spend a good amount of my life studying gender, gender variations, identifications, everything. it's such a wide and fascinating topic, and everyone is constantly learning about it.
i'll post some good resources for definitions and other research at a later date, but i strongly suggest doing some research on your own about it.

daily conversation

hello. since this is my first post, i guess i'll introduce myself. i'm Zoe, a music geek who wears plaid and guys pants. thats all people see when they look at me. i'm so much more than that. underneath that i'm wiser than i ever get credit for, more sensitive than people realize, have social anxiety, am very self conscious, and am neither a girl nor a boy.

i go by the pronoun Xe, a gender neutral "label" that i self-impose. often times i've been called he, even before i realized i'm not really a boy or a girl.

note that i said GENDER neutral. that's because there is a distinct difference between gender and sex. sex can be attributed to genitalia, whereas gender is how one identifies. more often than not, these overlap, and people's sex and gender are the same. but there are the people in the gray area, the people assumed to be in the gray area, and the people who dont know where they fall.
and i proudly fall into the gray area.
i'm almost always afraid how people would react if they were to know, but its funny. my mother almost told me that she would rather my appearance be an issue of gender expression as opposed to sexuality. unfortunately for her, its both.
i'll be sure to post longer, more detailed posts eventually, but this is all for now.
thanks for reading!